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A twenty-one year old college graduate. A Bachelor of Arts degree in Psychology. An Area of Concentration Certification in Substance Abuse Prevention. Preparing to be a world traveler. To be an open mind, and open heart, an open spirit. And ready to take on the next step when I return. Applying to doctorate programs, and doing what I need to do to make it all happen. Doing what I need to do to change the world. To BE the change I wish to see.

I am incredibly proud

I might still be in love

I can’t do “booty-calls” or “one-night-stands.”

Because it is an honor for a man to get to see and enjoy my body in that way

And because I simply cannot give away one of my most valued and prized possessions for almost free.

It’s been quite some time.

This young lady is my new interest.

Her music, voice, and heart are just 

as strikingly beautiful as her outward appearance.

I’ve been greatly enjoying her.

Thank you Christina Perri, for sharing yourself

with the world.

because I’m going to see Pirates tonight. I know it’s over done, and that none of them will ever be as good as the original. But they are exciting and full of passion and fire, and for those two hours a feel that much more at home

I worry for you young ladies who are growing up in this world. I want so badly to hold them and remind them that there is more in this world, in this life, than what they are being shown

My lighting struck down and left a mark,

One little hole easily patched up and ignored

Quickly forgotten and looked past

Because in that place within your chest where it struck, life quickly recovered

Nothing had to lie dead or bare for very long

New soil was packed into the tiny crevasse that was made

And reconstructed you to almost whole again

Nobody would ever know my lightening left a minuscule scar

Buried just below the surface of your new lush soil

Your lightening struck down on my Earth and left chaos

In newly dehydrated plains, so thirsty for the liquid of your soul

Having been steadily deprived of the nectar it needed for nourishment

In a vast field now vacant, standing with only begging to be revived brush

Your lightening struck

And how swiftly that dried up mess caught on fire

So while your small hole is nice and mended

And kindly tended by this person you’ve befriended,

I was stricken while pushed to the side and left undefended  

The wildfire has so rapidly spread through me

Every rolling hill between my head heart soul and body engulfed by the flames

The kind of inferno that is not effortlessly contained

With a couple of water-buckets full of half-hearted

“I’m sorries” or “I’m really not trying to hurt yous”

Don’t you see what lightening can do?

I am on fire

And as its anger rages on, coursing throughout me

It continues to leave my insides burnt

Seared with the blackness of an unrelenting sorrow

In a place where I swear there was once flowers and life.

And from the charred pieces of my heart,

That creak, and crack, and cry in mourning its sudden loss of you,

The deep valley of my soul already knows,

The next phase… disintegration into ashes

The weaken, the loosen, the fall apart

The snowy melancholy drift that covers everything in its grey lifeless soot

And I can only pray

That when these blazing flames of rage burn out

And every piece of me has been torched and crisped

And each tear has finally been fragmented to nothing but ash

I can only pray

That from those ashes, Your ashes

Love will find me with her compass

The one that always point towards home

And from nothing but run-down faith and still warm ash

I will be reborn into the me I’ve always known.

I may follow more people than do follow me, but shit girls…. I can’t scroll through the dashboard without seeing at least one post about one of you wishing you were “skinny.” Each time I see a picture of a pretty face followed by a body of merely skin and bones with a comment underneath saying “I want to be that skinny,” it makes me well-up inside. I don’t know any of you, but I have seen your pictures and you are BEAUTIFUL. Beautiful EXACTLY the way you are. Please, please, PLEASE understand that have been made, and shaped, and form precisely the way you were meant to be, and there is nobody in the world who should convince you otherwise. You are unique, you are you, and you are BEAUTIFUL. 

KNOW YOUR WORTH